ナンクルナイサ

can’t even write the “K”

ちょう — Sun, 26 Oct 2008 16:20:09 +0000

Yesterday I went to Düsseldorf to go visit an art shop which had 12th year anniversary, but finally all I got was a 2B pencil >,> I bought it because I left my pencil bag at university and was unable to do homework. But to tell the truth I still don’t feel like drawing lots of hands, but there isn’t much time left. There I try to hide everything that possibly could draw off my attention. That’s pathetic, isn’t it?
I went to a Japanese bookstore afterwards and bought two PetitEva figures. I payed about €7, but I bet in Japan it costs less than one-third of it. I’m not sure if yesterday were some kind of important day, but there were a lot of stupid and bad-dressed cosplayers in Düsseldorf. They really suck, because most of them always buy things just because it’s from Japan even if they don’t like them. They don’t do their cosplay dress themself, but buy it instead. That’s the worst. Woah, it’s pointless to talk about it, because thing will not change this way…

A few days ago I got my really great looking steelbook copy of the first Rebuild of Evangelion movie. I watched it twice and as a long year Evangelion fan I’m able to say that it’s amazing. I can’t understand people who say it’s not, because most of them say it’s not like the original. That’s a very stupid statement, because for sure the Rebuild series is not meant just to be a new and better looking version of the anime series from the 90th. It’s more like a reinterpretation which shows some new perspective. (Otherwise how to give reasons for the new female character?) I think it’s well done and I enjoy the release of the Evangelion 2.0 in summer 2009.

I started to watch SOUL EATER this week and I REALLY enjoy it Soon, I’ll definitly write more about it, but currently I become to much exited when I think about episodes 6 and 14 :))))

// There are still problems with the currently theme, but at the moment I don’t have much time to fix them. The page selection still doesn’t work and I have some problems with the tags. There is also a problem with the Permalinks, but I’m maybe able to fix it (hopefully) soon.
I must be a genius, because I solved all problems within one hour whoooaaaa~

spirale loop ループ

ちょう — Sun, 19 Oct 2008 13:05:04 +0000

Life is currently a great mess. It’s hard to keep this blog running, because I did not update it regular, but at the moment life is very exiting, exhausting and something happens every day.

To keep you in the loop (of life):
I finally got my scholarship and I’m now able to study at the university I always wanted to. University started two weeks ago and still exiting. We are about 17 people who are sitting in six hours a day in one room and have a lot of fun with each other. At the moment our topic is drawing and constitution and we need to draw and hatch every day. It’s fun, but tell the truth it’s also exhausting and sometimes (every second day >,>) I fall asleep on my way home.

As you can see recently there is quite a lot stuff I want to talk about. But even though I don’t have homework for university to do I currently don’t have much spare time. I wasn’t able to continue the new added monthlyりん issue this month, but continue in November. I decided to keep this project running with a new topic every second month. Because I felt so overstrained the last weeks I now some take time to assign priorities and first finish something before I start with the next things. I know it’s sounds easy, but I’m really bad in arranging myself. Therefore I decided to first finish my work in reorganizing Limit-Breaks before I do something for Grieved-Lightness.

As I told you some time before I wanted to upload my portfolio I used for my application at university, but I changed my plans: My domain Limit-Break, which had the function of a network, is now going to become a more personal website. There will be a huge part for personal information, such as a short biography and photos (!!!), the announced portfolio with a new arranged content and a website collective that gives an overview over my running websites and hosted ones.
I’m already far advanced with it, but I don’t want to hurry this much and take much time as I need. I feel I’m in the lap of luxury :)))))

I’m may going to write some more German entries soon, for no reason. I so don’t like to write in German or to mix English and German -,-
Ahhh, I’ll write when I’m done with Limit-Breaks.

See ya!

edit-one: I’m glad sommer is gone and autumn arrived
edit-two: Anyone who want to have a look on my works from university?
edit-three: I added a picture of Hikki taken by herself. I really like it.

ヒッキー

Tell me what the rain knows…

ちょう — Mon, 29 Sep 2008 18:07:57 +0000

I’m absolutly not sure what about to do with this blog. My short depression is over and things are currently running well, but I don’t know if I should keep this blog running. I would like to continue writing in English, but sometimes it’s really exhausting. >,>
This moment I would love to write some more details about the recent days, but I’m tired and exhausted and too lazy -,-
I’ll keep it in mind and post them this week (maybe…).

Untitled.

ちょう — Tue, 16 Sep 2008 18:59:51 +0000

I think about removing this blog very soon.
I don’t mind if someone reads my entries or not, because I just wanted to use this blog to let off stem. But recently I have no time to care about this, because frustration is too deep. Before I let another unative thing stay I’ll delete it. Feel free to remove my link.

Killing time

ちょう — Sun, 07 Sep 2008 21:31:39 +0000

I currently need to kill some time, because I want to upload the new session of Grieved-Ligthness at the very stroke of midnight this time. Actually it’s a stupid idea, because I’m ill and very sleepy, because the lasts nights can’t be called restorative. I think about to finish some of those drafts I talked about some days ago, but after I checked them I fall into a great lack of interest, because all of them are some kind of dopey. The first one contents a list of music and musicians who inspired me a lot the lasts three month, but it’s a very short list, because the last three month I always listened to the same artists >,> The second draft was some kind of an information log about an Anime I was interested in, but finally I didn’t watched it until today. A list of thing which were getting on my nerves the last weeks is in the third draft. I’m thinking about to delete them, because now everything is said.

Just 30 minutes left and I’m now going to do something different than this. Good night. See ya.

・・・

ちょう — Sat, 06 Sep 2008 11:52:52 +0000

I’m finally back from vacation, but I’m not in the mood to write blog entires lately - even if things run well. I still have more than four drafts I always wanted to post, but didn’t get round to do it.

A few days ago I started to play Rappelz again. After a half year of inactivity Rappelz went into session five and is now called “Rappelz Epic V: Dragonic Age”. But actually I don’t have time to play, because Grieved-Lightness is still down and I need to get ready until Monday.

Sketches

ちょう — Tue, 05 Aug 2008 12:05:15 +0000

Recently I’m not in the mood to write something that has more than two characters or spending much time on the computer. Even if I started and need to work on the next session for Grieved-Lightness I miss any engine to do so. Actually it’s a pity, because I carried out something like a plan (read more). If you still want to watch my portfolio I promised to prepare you need to wait until I’m back from vacation in September.

During the last days (maybe weeks) there where a lot of things that started to annoy me and lately I became impatient I think. To cut a long story short: I’m waiting for packages, information, money and inspiration. The package contents clothes and I suspect that it will arrive when I’m absent next Wednesday (this really sucks, because I had a lot of trouble because of this order last week…). Information means to get to know if I’ll able to call myself a scholarship holder in near future. Stuff it! I can’t change a thing about the current situation (or the bigger part of it) and need to be patient even if it annoys me.

Done.

HOT HOT HOT!

ちょう — Wed, 16 Jul 2008 10:12:38 +0000

- got inspired by Kiru
- editing my portfolio since hours
- listening to The Cure for a while
- is thinking of calling flashs of inspiration
- anyway posting lyrics

hey hey hey!!!
but i like it when that lightning comes
hey hey hey!!!
yes i like it a lot
hey hey hey!!!
yes i’m jumping like a jumping jack
dancing screaming itching squealing fevered
feeling hot hot hot!!!

色とりどり

ちょう — Sun, 13 Jul 2008 11:34:06 +0000

From now on my personal Livejournal is closed and will obviously not being updated again. I’ll not delete it, but I currently want to contain my online activities, because I don’t want to promise to keep things active even though I know I can’t.

On the other hand I reanimated my account in FLICKR, because of recent happenings. When I visited university on Wednesday the professor said that I’m a talented person o_o but to apply for a scholarship I need to do more. Therefore I got a deadline until next Thursday where I should present some more photographies and web layouts. I thought I kept all photos I took on my trip to London last year, but it seems I removed everything from my computer (´・ω・｀) that’s bad, because I remember some nice shots I had. Now I have to take some new photos and go outside every day. To tell the truth I’m surprised, because I didn’t take any shots for a while, but the new ones are great - I know this must sound fancied, but recently I noticed that it’s not wrong to become a bit more self-conscious.

☆ new photo dictionary: 色とりどり

By the way … I’m looking for a new blog theme. I want it to be black&white only and I would like to be able to add a new header. It’s similar to myspace layouts. Some are nice, but the huge amount of them are gross -.-

ただいま。

ちょう — Sun, 06 Jul 2008 18:19:02 +0000

Writing this means to feel sad, depressed and drained.
Yesterday I started to create a design for Final Fantasy community I was a member of for over six years. This community is still online, but inactive since one or two years. It makes me sad, because I had so much fun with it and now everything is gone and became sleazy, because of the unactive members and ignorant admins. Maybe I feel this way, because I know each other well and can’t understand their attitude. I belong to a sort people who can’t to let go and worked on things until the very end, but there is no need if you are the only one who cares I think…

I’m not quite sure why I try so hard with this layout, because there is no need for it and I think I spend too much time with it (and effort) to share it on Grieved-Lightness.
I think I’m attached to it, because I always wanted to create a design for this website, but I was never allowed to. When I got my chance I failed - I always fail when I need to work on something I like. I always take care in creating web designs no matter if they’re ordered by a friend or a person I don’t know, but when I have to do something for myself I always fail. It’s the same with ordinary drawings. It’s like I have a blockade in my head and I have no idea what to do.

Oh dear, this sounds really depressed. Maybe it’s because of the Anime I’m recently watching. Mushi-shi makes me feel calm and contemplative. Maybe it’s because of the music that makes me feel home.

Here are two of my favorite songs from the Mushi-shi soundtrack I uploaded. ~~It’s not that I wanted to share them to everyone. It’s just a sort of core or medium to show you what I mean.~~

1.「海境（うなさか）より」 umi sakai (unasaka) yori
2.深淵 shinen (fixed)

Btw: the soundtrack reminds me of Mononoke hime OST, but the composer doesn’t compose both. What a pity, because both of them created some kind of pleasent feeling.